Monday, August 08, 2011

London - Looted and in Flames

I am absolutely speechless. A few nights ago (Thursday night in fact), I met a friend from JC who is in London for a few weeks for dinner. He asked me, "is London safe?". Without hesitation, I replied in the negative. Over the last 2 years, I've started to feel a little safer than when I first arrived. But I never felt completely at ease. Least of all when I pass through some of the most dangerous boroughs in the capital every week. But tonight has left me in disbelief that such uncivilised acts could take place in such a widespread manner in a supposedly civilised society.

In case you are wondering and are concerned, I'm safe, indoors and hope to remain so.

However, the scenes I see on the TV (laptop to be more exact) have been heartbreaking, frustrating and horrifying.

These are a (small part of a) generation of youths who have grown up in the "modern world". Technology has changed the way we think, communicate, and influence others. Or perhaps London is now facing up to years of unaddressed delinquency as loots destroy their very own neighbourhoods and communities. One reporter was asked by the studio, "what are the parents doing? why are the kids on the streets?" and the reply was "the kids are always on the streets". The scale of the problem is obviously far bigger and far more fundamental.

And so I've spent almost the whole night glued to the BBC news watching the events unfold all around me on TV and shaking my head way too often. Now, as I watch cars, buses, shops, and hundred-year-old landmark buildings go up in flames, and people shamelessly looting shops in broad daylight, I reflect on the depravity of man, and the extent of wickedness. These people obviously knew they were doing wrong, for they wore masks, balaclava and tshirts over their faces to avoid getting recognised on CCTV and to avoid suffering the consequences of their actions. The sad truth is that they will probably never be caught or face justice in the courts, but their conscience, if not already seared, will forever pierce them.

As buildings and vehicles burned all around the capital, with Hackney just a couple of miles north of here and Peckham and Lewisham not far south, I tried to imagine what hell would be like. Even in relatively decent neighbourhoods - directly across the capital from where the violence first stared in Croydon (SW Greater London) and Clapham Junction (quite an expensive hip area) - crazy people have gone on a rampage. The video footage from helicopters are terrifying enough, and the firemen stood very small beside flames many times their height which threatened to engulf them. Burnt out buildings are now threatening to collapse, and have to be pulled down and destroyed forever. Grand Dames of the high street that have stood for centuries, gone in an hour. Nothing is sure; nothing stands forever on this earth. Another lesson to never build with wood, hay or stubble.

Across the world over, there is bad news on every corner. The financial markets are in perpetual meltdown, there are uprisings all over - Syria, Libya, etc, and society is crumbling. This is truly a godless and perverse generation. The end is nigh? God, be merciful.

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

CFA Level 1

It's been 6 weeks since the exam so obviously I had clean forgotten about the exam. Just remembered yesterday that results were due out today, and then started to panic and get nervous. Ignorance was much preferable bliss.

Work kept me too busy all morning, but as 9am ET approached I found myself checking my inbox quite frequently, and when the email finally came in, I only read the 1st line. and it was enough. it read: "Congratulations. I am very pleased to inform you that you passed the June 2011 Level I CFA exam. You are one step closer to achieving your goal of earning the globally respected CFA charter." Truly thank God! Not so sure about wanting to move on to Level 2, but at least I don't have to repay the sponsors for the amount of the exam and the course. Anyhow I foolishly forwarded on the message to my team to share the good news, and after that realised that there was a breakdown of the score at below... ooooopps...!

These weeks have been very stressful and hectic, but God has still continuously poured down blessing after blessing to make things come together slowly.

Saturday, July 16, 2011

on roofs

suddenly, in a span of 2 weeks, we have 2 roofs over our heads.

Praise God from whom all blessings flow!

update soon!

Saturday, May 21, 2011

PHAT!

collected my wedding gown today, and like I predicted, those measurements the lady took at the shop last time were too good to be true! size 4, come on... i'd be quite happy being an 8.

the dress fit, but i wouldn't have been able to stay in it for more than half an hour without suffocating; and i'd quite like to breathe normally on my wedding day, thankyouverymuch. anyway, so it's too late to order another dress in size 6 or something larger, so i guess i'll either just pay £30 for the tailors to take it out slightly at the waist, or i'd have to make sure i lose some flab to fit it!

to be quite honest, exercise has taken much a back-seat in recent months. ever since the CFA classes started, the thought of going to the gym or exercising never even crossed my mind. Since i still eat the same amount of food/ junk food, and the miracle of youthful metabolism isn't quite working to my favour anymore, i can feel the inches getting added on. all that will have to change very soon, starting in 2 weeks. though i wish i could go do something NOW.

guess my health is also starting to deteriorate. Just as I was starting to get complacent about not having been stricken by serious illness since moving here, i nearly passed out at work (again!). absolutely hate causing unnecessary drama and having all the boys in the office find out the reason why, but i'm just thankful that they are all so sweet and nice. 2 of them even walked me down to the sick bay just in case i fainted on the way... and the only other lady in my team insisted on taking me home in a cab. i'm truly blessed. on a lighter note, that blue shirt i have in my wardrobe is cursed - was wearing that same shirt when i last fainted at work, and also when i got knocked down by a bicycle. coincidence?
owell, like daddy says, i just have to deal with one thing at a time. and it is now time to study. just finished the 1st part of my 1st mock exam. couldn't sit there for the whole duration of the paper (3 hours), as expected, but just rushed through and did it in 2. the result: a multitude of errors. Somehow just can't seem to remember the gazillion things and grasp some key concepts, especially in the area of economics (yucks! who even cares?). God help me in these last 2 weeks.

better return to the horrible books, and save my story finally using the NHS for another time.

Friday, May 13, 2011

235 of 246

as with all other singaporean couples out there trying to settle down, we tried to apply for a HDB flat. Both times it was just a formality, thinking that we were probably not going to get it given the high odds against us (9:1 for the 1st time and 8:1 for the second). but time was running out for us, and we needed to double our chance quickly (but failing twice).

So the first time in Mar, i was quite relieved to have received an email from HDB essentially saying "thanks for playing, try again". afterall, I didn't really fancy Sengkang.

However, to my pleasant surprise this morning, I got an email this morning saying that the ballot for April had been completed and I have been assigned queue number 235. Was quite happy (ok, more relieved) at first, until i found out that actually the number of flats available is 246. This essentially means that we'd prob be left with not much of a choice at all. but then again, some choice is better than not having the option at all. not that i really like punggol... but what God gives, it's probably better just to take and say 'thank you'.

so, we'll see what happens, but at least that is one thing settled! all in all, i'm still thankful that the process went so quickly for us, as so many people before us have tried countless times and are still unsuccessful.