Inna, Azi & Carol v Thai Express

1 March 2007
1930h
Esplanade

Haha, i couldnt resist blogging. we finally set a date to go claim our free meal from thai express. Inna imspired this post. haha, i called her just now to confirm the dinner tomorrow, and promptly hung up. 2 seconds later, she calls back and goes

"remember not to eat tomorrow!"

i was stunned for 2 seconds, then i realised what she really meant was, 'prepare for a feast tomorrow, we're gonna get back at them, and make them pay dearly...'

*burst out laughing*

then we promptly hung up again. haha. i wonder how it'll be like tomm, i would love to see how inna bosses her way around thai express haha....

speaking of which, i was thinking about the incident and all, and i am convinced that destiny does exist. i believe it was God's will afterall, for everything to happen, and subsequently, me not getting into the club (i was informed by way of a very rude letter penned by toh jiamin, apology NOT accepted, haha!). some might deem it to be a case of sour grapes, in fact, perhaps the food poisoning and all had nothing to do with it, perhaps i was simply too lousy. But beyond all that, this rejection caused me to think deeper.

just saw juline's email about attending winter retreat on 'jonah'. i think i'm exactly like him. i was totally trying to run away this year, giving all kinds of excuses. i told myself, and everyone else, that i didn't want to serve in the YF anymore. i was sick and tired of it after all this years, i've lost all my passion and ideals and energy. i wanted to join the case club because i thought it was a way to success. i wanted an overseas internship. i wanted to be more active in school. it was all about me and my secular thoughts and ideals. Jonah was chastised and shown

But He showed me that it was never about me at all. He wanted me to press on in the ministry, He laid such a burden upon me that i was unable to refuse. When i gave my conditions (more involved in school, overseas internship), he promptly closed all the doors. Now i'm left with no more excuses. He has taught me to trust in Him, and not lean on my own understanding. I guess only He knows what lies ahead. Mid-way through my internship applications, i decided that i'll stay in Singapore, the overseas options didn't seem so attractive anymore. I will stay and serve Him, it wasn't in His will to get into the case club, whatever the reason might be, i'll use the time i had committed for higher purposes.

(ok fine, jm was right when he told me at 4am that perhaps it wasn't God's will, but i would not have known until i struggled through, tried and failed. through that incident, God also showed me what a dear luyi was, she smsed me all the way from msia to see if i was ok, and sebas was encouraging as well)

i've learnt about myself as well.... i learnt that, i never... learn. i need failure to be thrown into my face, i need to crash right into a closed door, before i realise that it's a 'wrong way-turn back' sign. but i thank God that at least that has been real in my life. I might be too ambitious, not knowing what's good for myself. i dunno if that's gonna change. But if failure is the way God's gonna clearly show me His will, i don't really mind all the heartache and time... hmmm thats easy to say on hindsight, but i really don't know.

it's scary i guess, the only comfort is in knowing that He who holds tomorrow also holds my hand. May i always have the desire to do His will daily and never ever stray.

Destiny

Before the world was made, the stars above displayed,
A loving God had made a great design.
Before the planets flew, and earth came into view,
Their forms were fashioned in the Master’s mind.
Now we can see that from eternity,
His perfect wisdom carried out a plan,
And we are all a part of what was in His heart,
The moment when He first created man.

The mountains and the lees, the deserts and the seas,
Were laid with utmost care from pole to pole.
And in my heart I know, it surely must be so,
He has a plan and pattern for my soul.
Why am I here, the reason is so clear,
He made me and He claimed this life of mine.
We’re more than just a slave,
Who’s heading for the grave,
My destiny is in His will divine.

But for tomorrow at Thai Express, i'm not touching the tom yam glass noodles.

week 9

*foul!* fast count*

since when is it week 9 already?!? *panic* no idea how the rest of the term passed by so quickly.

and after that week of break...
I SIMPLY CANNOT TAKE THE ONSLAUGHT OF WORK!

3 days to FIIM mid-terms
2 weeksto complete Audit indiviual assignment
3 weeks to FIIM and IE presentations
4 weeks to Coy Law presentation
2 weeks to IE mid-terms.

so many things to do, and yet, if you to just ask me casually what subjects i'm taking this term, i wont be able to tell you without thinking hard...! like that how!?! fail already la...

oh i forgot.
the internship which i need to get.
to quote neil, 'please Lord, give me an internship'........

ok, march onward to the fight now....!!!

but first, some rest would be good.... zzzzzzzzzzzz

time goes by.... so slowly?

not exactly inspired to post now. it's just that i was blog-surfing (*gasp*) and i really dunno how pple have so much endurance to keep up with their blogs.

i also found out that pple do come to my blog, only to be disappointed time again by my (lack of) updates. heh.

mid-term break. we got cheated cos it was the chinese new year week. but i would say that this week was pretty well-spent. by my definition, haha. which means that i didn't touch my work at all, though i did try to catch up on my research... need to buck up for that. spent most of my time with david cos he's leaving on sun for another semester. sigh. bren wished me a slow week, i won't say it passed very quickly, but you know, i wish that this week doesn't have to end. i can't imagine myself back in the hustle and bustle of school.

shall try to account for what i did...

sunday. the 1st day of CNY, didn't do much. went to church and then to my grandmother's house. watched lots of tv, like night in the museum, for the 2nd time...
shermin and chloe, who both don't know how to smile... sheesh. how do u teach somebody to smile?


babies are addicted to ba kwa too! (: tis the chinese new year season, everyone's entitled!


the whole family (almost)... or as i like to call it, the friday gang, since we meet every friday. haha.

monday. went over to david's aunt's place for lunch n met my uncle there, heh... visited a bit and then met bren for dinner at the prata place @ thomson rd. the service is quite bad, and the utensils and all that were quite dirty, yucks. haha. she had a camera, but we forgot to take a pic! wasted! hope her CAs go well next week. somebody should ban all schools from conducting exams after the break week. it defeats the purpose of the break... grrr..

tuesday. hung out at david's place with sarah and grace. played muchkin, some game which i found rather complicated, but i must admit that it's pretty cool. we were feasting on cedele and goodwood park cake so much i think we had a chocolate overdose. and as if that's not enough to kill us, grace, david and i went to adam road for dinner.... nasi lemak and kambeng soup... tsk tsk... and as if that's still not enough, met the clowns for supper. my wonderful plan to go healthy and have rochor rd tauhuay was spoilt when the stores were closed... so we drove back to david's place and played another game... i dun remember what it's called, but it was something about goldminers and saboteurs... started feeling quite sick, and i blame it on billy. i think im allergic to him or something... we went to coffee club for supper after that, but not before circling the perimeter of orchard road, killiney rd, penang rd, and grange rd about 3 times, bringing debbie on a round-about chase in her van. haha. was too tired to try and take pictures. heh. by the time i got back it was 3 plus and david just conked out. but we fetched karen the school the next morning, she was so thrilled... haha


me, sarah and grace with a really cool camera effect. haha

wednesday. the secret training was cancelled. i was quite disappointed cos i haven't played frisbee in the longest time.. and i'm not even going for waikiki on sat... and i packed everything, all ready. owellz. intended to start studying for FIIM, but i was sleeping most of the day... and i got locked out of my house cos i forgot the keys... got a lot of pple irritated. heh

thursday. by the time i woke up, half the day was gone. was supposed to meet david in town but we kept delaying, by the time i met him it was 5 plus, which leaves enough time for some shopping and dinner. i think i was really falling sick at that time, cos after walking bras basah for a bit, and then heading down to millennia walk, i was super super tired. granted, we losers couldnt exactly locate millennia walk, or the 1-for-1 place we were supposed to have dinner. the big 'o' or something like that. the food was not bad la, but maybe it's all psychological since it was 1-for-1. haha. i wasnt even craving for the yummy chocolate cakes they had in the window... sheesh, can't believe myself, on hindsight...
exchange. stayed up till quite late trying to research on the places to go on exchange. i'm quite excited at the prospect of spending 6 months in europe... haha. narrowed down to copenhagen, sweden, switzerland, france.... hopefully all the co-ordination will work out... i think it's quite a tall order trying to co-ordinate exchange for 3 pple.

friday. woke up at 2pm today! haha. so much for waking up at 12. but i was really tired. went to buona vista to meet david and sarah for dinner, but it was raining and everyone was late. was standing at the taxi stand just waiting when i felt quite faint. was quite scary, so i quickly hurried over to the busstop to sit down. thank God i didn't faint there, it would have been quite a sight... had dinner at IMM with grace as well, then went for combined FCM while the rest went for G62. good thing eugene and i went! elder boon was there, haha! and i got sent home as well :) wensiang is the new student co-ordinator, well done, i think he fits the role perfectly, speaking of which, i better remember what else i have to do before the next camp comm meeting next sunday. hah. somehow i always get the impression that FCM is full of pple who are very holy.... like herbert and clement and eileen chee and the twins, etc etc.... it's a good place to grow i guess... haha but im going for the next 2 FCM meetings!


SMU FCM. haha. enough said.

now. friday night/sat morning. tomm's another packed day, and 1 day to his departure. :( reality doesn't hit till it's too late. it's always like that...

next week. it's back to the old life. that filled with classes, work, projects, tests, and being slack... the next holiday will be here before i know it.

c'est la vie.

and so it goes... another un-inspired and un-inspiring post