i think i have a wayy too forgettable character. i'm a typical unimpactful person, if there's even such a word. the kind that most people won't even think of normally, until they're forced to because of a less-than-welcome appearance. the kind where it wouldnt matter if gone.
actually, i think i'm just such a lousy friend, and it's simply a vicious circle. i never felt the need to have anyone very very very close, like a best best friend kind of thing. i think my primary school teacher noticed that, she actually asked me. that was during the whole primary school thing where everyone was in the 'i friend you, i dont friend you' stage. and it's so weird how i seem to relate better to guys, and the girls just keep away. it's not a bad thing to have only a few good friends, i feel. but it's just the desire to want to make more of an impact on other lives. how can i when i never try hard enough?
but i guess i can't handle too many, that's why God only gave me a few to constantly encourage and uplift? i should just stop complaining and count my blessings instead.
just a continuation of the recent spate of weird thoughts running through my empty head...
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