the week that killed me

it's wednesday, and i'm officially dead. i think i've been wayy too slack this term, and i didn't take charge of my planning my own schedule. ended up with 2 presentations in week 12 and 1 in week 13. so this is retribution for all the slacking the last 11 weeks.

last weekend was pure madness, i'm rather proud of the fact that i survived it actually. but come to think of it, it's probably not by my own strength because i could never last so long. last week was pretty mad, but i still managed to sleep about 4-5 hours a day, which of cos left me feeling very drained towards the end of the week. *ok actually i think i blogged about this already in the last post* ok the FIIM project was quite a disaster. we handed it up like 13 hours late, and that number doesnt even represent the total number of hours i slept over the weekend in total.

but i did it. i survived on:
1.5-2hours of sleep on friday night, woke up for training, rushed to church for combined meeting, and finally staggered home at like 9+. combined meeting was really good though. it was truly a blessing, and a time of upliftingg to see other youth groups so faithful, and how much effort they take to reach out. compared to our almost non-existent efforts. the bonding over games at west coast was good as well. but i nearly died. slacked throughout captain's ball, rounders, and their version of 'capture the flag'. tried to play a bit of ultimate too but there were too many pple who don't really know how to play. actually i dun think i can enjoy ultimate at a recre level because i just dunno what to do when it degenerates to captain's ball. but then again, that was pretty much how we played in JC as well, just that the guys were so good at it there weren't so many turnovers. but i like the way ultimate is played in the proper way, the concept's so different. pulled my thigh muscle for the first time in a long long time during the 1st go-to drill in the morning, and couldnt run much in the afternoon after that. maybe i'm getting more unfit.

fell asleep from 12midnight till 3am on sat night on the sofa. was so tempted to go sleep properly but i dragged myself to the comp to work on the stupid report and before i knew it, it was time to go to church. wanted to cry when i was sitting at the piano during choir practice. i was so exhausted my brain couldnt keep up with the song, and i couldnt turn the pages at the right times and couldnt remember the bars on the next page. seriously panicked cos there as a presentation, but thank God that while playing during the service, i just trusted that God will glorify himself regardless of how unworthy i was. i remembered the RPG reading a few days/weeks ago about how the Morse guy was so humble in thinking that he was merely the instrument which God was pleased to use to reveal the 'technology' to man. and his first message sent was 'what God hath wrought'. i'm glad that i felt at peace throughout the service, and i didn't fall asleep. haha.

it was karen's birthday on monday! so after church we went to fish and co at IMM. itwas a nice big family gathering (: but the clock was ticking and the project was almost due. owellz. that nite, i happilywent to sleep at 11plus, telling my mum to wake me up at 12 the next day. but it was not to be. the final outcome was that we handed the proj in like 13 hours late. after jm called me up at lik 6am, and actually came over to my place to print the report and do the ppt. owellz

we just presented, and actually i typed the bulk of this post in class. the Q and A went so badly. but at least 1 proj's over.tomm's IE presentation, and monday coy law.

the week is far from over.

"My grace is sufficient for you... My strength is made perfect in weakness..." ok Lord, i'm counting on you...